I'm stunned to know that I failed again, even though I knew I was going nowhere. The question I have in mind is the following: If I know the outcome will be demoralizing, why do I even attempt to play such a irrational game? Someone else always wins, someone comes and takes what I want, leaving me in state of silent destruction. I must keep moving forward, but right now, I feel my soul in such discomfort, it's almost agonazing. I'm tired of asking for something that should be a gift.
I don't hope you best. On the contrary...
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