Autumn

Another semester, the same inhibitions, the same frustrations. It has become a very difficult task to change anything, I've become too accustomed to this cell. I've never been out of the cave, how am I supposed to know what's outside? How do I seek the unknown?

It's becoming something unbearable. I'm acting like a delusional young man. I'm selling myself the idea that I could be loved by woman who's much older and married with children. That could never happen, but I want someone to care for me and protect me, because I feel weak and hollow. I'm becoming like an uncontrollable rebellion. Today I wanted to talk to her, but I felt it was pointless and gave up.

Meanwhile, I need to return to reality...