We all think of what we have as great

The idea behind this blog was to force myself to write--a skill I haven't been able to acquire--in order to feel more productive, and get used to the tasks of an academic. Perhaps I should write in my native language, it's more natural. My main difficulty has been translating feelings into coherent language. Since most of the time I can only relate to things emotionally, even when it comes to things such as history, politics, and art; I can not understand them unless they evoke strong feelings within me. I'm afraid I'm someone who can only learn or experience reality through feelings, which explains why I've never felt interested in mathematics or technology.

This is what I wanted to record today.

I remember when the English Patient won 9 academy awards back in early 1997. This movie, which is probably one of my favorite movies of all times, if it had been released a year later it might have never won anything at all, it would have been dismissed as just another film. The point is that everything in life is ruled by chance, everything happens only if a number of things come together or happen at the same time, or everything could be totally transformed by minute details, which means that we can chance the entire course of our existence with one step to the right or left. I know, the example above is rather pathetic, but it explains how random life is. Sometimes I feel that I appeared at the wrong time, or that I wasn't meant to be here at all, maybe it is not my fault I never win the first prize, maybe I'm just in the wrong time and place. Those who are chosen, maybe are so because no one else was around to compete with them, and expose their lack of significance and their superficiality.